Bad naps :(

So after the last post, I crashed out and woke up at 8:41. I wasn't sure what time of day it was (morning or night) and again I was disorientated. It's 1:03am and I'm wondering if the reduced dose of meds is already impacting on me? I hope not too much as I don't think they're helping that much lately.

Still feel despondent, lethargic, and drained...I wish you could buy happiness in a bottle or jar, I feel like I need a giant dose just to remember what it's like.

That's the thing with depression (or mine at least), my mood is similar to a flatline and only ever seems to go down. Sometimes it goes up but only briefly, never for more than a few hours.

It's odd but I feel like I've got pins n needles all over.