One thing which I did accomplish though is I overcame anxiety and managed to go somewhere without having to meet anyone outside. I amazed myself! Although it did help that I was knackered and needed a sit down and a drink! It also helped that I vaguely knew someone who was there.
That was on Sunday night, and I've pretty much slept since then :(
Although tonight I realised I've lost part of a back tooth so that needs sorting before I resort to stupid/drastic measures like last time - I pulled out one of my own teeth cos I was in that much pain :(
Thanks for following my blog "Welcome to the QUAD" Martin. Pleased to follow you here. Congratulations on pushing the envelope in this post, I hope you've managed it again since. How's that tooth doing?
ReplyDeleteIf you ever feel able to frame your situation using Hodges' model let me know I'd be pleased to help and possibly feature this on my blog. The model is very useful for personal reflection and integrating things - not just issues but possible solutions too.
I guess you will have heard this a thousand times, but remember that for thoughts to be released unhelpful beliefs must be released too.
Life is about always crossing the 'middle': in this it seems you have no choice as to where the crossing is made. I trust that you can learn to positively use this 'crossing' - this part of yourself. Take care.
Best regards,
Peter Jones
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Thanks Peter, I remember you and @matason from my drupal time just before depression hit me. You'll have to let me know how drupalCon London goes!!
ReplyDeleteI intend to sit down and have a proper read of your blog soon :)